What Hurt The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend i’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But i’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and i’m alone
Still harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

by Rascal Flatts

D'Journey

 

“The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination.”

-Don William, Jr.-

Hi everyone! Sorry for the late entry...

So how will you spend your holiday? Me?  I will leave for Beijing :). Actually I have to depart from 27th June, but it got canceled, So the date will be 2nd July.

I wish you have a fun holiday, too. 'Life to me is a journey - you never know what may be your next destination'. If all difficulties were known at the outset of a long journey, most of us would never start out at all.

Two Wolves-A Cherokee Legend

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people.
He said, "My son, the battle is between two "wolves" inside us all.
One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.
The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."
The grand son thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: "Which wolf wins?"
The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

Liar's Smile (English)

Tears of a person taught me that there may be something more behind them, I realized this a long time ago
Since that day things… nothing, never again be equal.
Simply this elegant appearance, whether it away, you have nothing, what's left is loneliness
"I do not let" only care continues, with such tenderness
Saying phrases that evoke my name, while the tears fall from your face…
I always worry to see this face, which gives me a smile pretend
"Come on, you can avoid leaving was hurt," you lied to me!
I want to look and tell me the truth, just by looking at their eyes
It is my only weapon against you,
Your dreams are as drain tears from my face
Take your heart filled with darkness
With that hand, takes one flower and go forever
"Within my heart you cried," since these far from my
It's better that way, I can now continue
Although I would have liked to take your hand forever.
I want to look and tell me the truth, just by looking at their eyes
It is my only weapon against you,
Your dreams are as drain tears from my face
Take this flower with your hand and disappears forever.

Liar's Smile

人の波教え背手は、私を霞めと遠い過ぎる
何時立て個々にいるのに、何だか向けから
Hito no nami, oshiesete ha, watashi wo kasume tooi sugiru,
itsu date koko ni iru noni, nanda ka muke kara

ただな噛めてプツリたたつむ、孤独の破片のみとんだ
tada na kamete putsuri tatatsumu, kodoku no hahen nomi tonda

人りにしないで離さないで　その温もりで包んで
言葉をかけて名前を呼んで　あなたの涙　頬に受けたい
Hitori ni shinaide hanasa nai de, sono nukumori de tsutsunde
Kotoba wo kakete namae wo yonde, anata no namida, hoho ni uketai

人の視線いつも気にして　不自然な笑顔無理に作る
頑張って傷付かないよう　自分に嘘ついて
Hito no shisen itsumo kinishite, hushisen na eka wo muri ni tsukuru
Ganbatte, kitsutsukanai yo jibun ni usotsurete…

声を聴かせて私を見て　その瞳に映して
あなたに触れたい腕に抱かれたい
あなたの指で涙を拭いて
Koe wo hikasete watashi wo mite, sono hitomi ni utsushite
Anata ni karenai yure ni kakaretai
Anata no yume de namida wo fuite


溶けていく心の闇
その手で抱きしめられたら　きっと･･･
Tokete yuku kokoro no yami
Sono te, de dakishimeraretara kitto…

心の中で叫んだって　その想いは届かない
ありのままの私でいられるよう
あなたと手を繋いでいたい
Kokoro no naka de sakenda wo te, sono omoi ha todokanai,
ari no mama no watashi de irareruyou,
anata to te wo tsunai de itai

声を聴かせて私を見て　その瞳に映して
あなたに触れたい腕に抱かれたい
あなたの指で涙を拭いて
Koe wo hikasete watashi wo mite, sono hitomi ni utsushite
Anata ni karenai yure ni kakaretai
Anata no yume de namida wo fuite.


その手で抱きしめられたら
きっと･･･
Sono te de dakishimeraretara
kitto…

My Treasure-For Mom

I look back on these years
To see how far I've come and grown,
I take a trip down memory lane,
And what I see has shown ...

That every step I've taken,
You have been there by my side ...
From infancy to adulthood,
We've stood the test of time.

You cradled me and nurtured me,
Through all these many years;
You held me and did comfort me,
Through happiness and tears.

You'd pick me up when I would fall,
You'd dust me off and then,
Encourage me to get back on
That horse and ride again.

Your constant care and loving,
And your warm inviting heart,
Has always been a treasure that
I knew would n'er depart.

If I could be "just half" the person
You have been to me ...
Then you have taught me well dear mom,
For in my heart I see ...

A woman whose most gentle soul,
Embraces me each day ...
A woman whom I dearly love,
Much more than words can say.

by Kit McCallum

D'Miracle

"The miracle is not to fly in the air, or to walk on the water, but to walk on the earth."

-Chinese Proverb-

Life is difficult. Every one knows that. Sometimes we can get what we don't want so easily, but when we eager for something, we wonder why it is so hard to accomplish it. 

Life is a miracle itself too. So prepare yourself and try your best. "The moon belongs to everyone, The best things in life are free, The stars belong to everyone, They gleam there for you and me."

:)

.hack//G.U

It's so nice that I can finally enter my blog again. Well, you know... my Google account have encountered some problem, and because of that, I can't enter my own blog! How frustrating! I almost make a new blog due to that ):
Recently, I'm interested in playing .hack//G.U trilogy. The truth is I have been playing it from a long, long time ago. So, this is the summary from Wikipedia. It's a fantastic game!

.hack//G.U. takes place in an alternate version of Earth in the year 2017. As depicted in the first .hack game series, the "2nd Network Crisis" was an incident that occurred seven years ago in which many computer systems across Japan malfunctioned. Through the efforts of those games' hero, Kite, the incident resulted in the birth of Aura, the ultimate artificial intelligence (AI), capable of making decisions for itself. Under the guidance of Aura, The World, the most popular massively multiplayer online role-playing game at the time, flourishes and the events of .hack//Legend of the Twilight occur during this four-year period.
In late 2014, Aura disappears, resulting in the slow decay of The World and the Internet as a whole. In response, the company that administrates The World, CC Corp, sets up "Project G.U." and tasks them with remedying the problem. They come up with the "Restore Aura (RA) Plan", in which they attempt to retrieve the fragments of Morganna—an AI that served as Aura's "mother"—and seal them into player characters (PCs) of The World. In theory, this would allow the Project G.U. programmers to manipulate the Morganna program to recreate Aura. Only certain "chosen" players could control these special "Epitaph PCs".
After locating candidates to operate the Epitaph PCs, the team proceeds to test the RA Plan despite concerns over "anti-existences" that might damage the Internet. The program fails catastrophically and destroys over 80% of the data for The World. Instead of trying to salvage the data, CC Corp develops The World R:2 and releases it to a new generation of players. However, this new game is less popular than its predecessor and becomes plagued by "player killers" (PKs), players who target other players for fun and sport. The Epitaph PCs which had been lost during the RA Plan disaster resurface in the new version, attached to certain players of interest.