My Hands

I wake in the morning tired of sleeping
Get in the shower and make my bed alone
I put on my makeup talking to the mirror
Ready for a new day without you

And I walk steady on my feet, I talk, my voice obeys me
I go out at night, sleep without the lights
And I do all of the things I have to keeping you off my mind
But when I think I'll be alright I am always wrong 'cause

My hands, don't wanna start again
My hands, no, they don't wanna understand
My hands, they just shake and try to break whatever peace I may find

My hands, they only agree to hold
Your hands, and they don't wanna be without
Your hands, and they will not let me go, no, they will not let me go

I talk about you now and go a day without crying
I go out with my friends now, I stay home all alone
And I don't see you everywhere and I can say your name easily
I laugh a bit louder without you

And I see different shades now and I'm almost never afraid now
But when I think I'll be okay I am always wrong 'cause

My hands, don't wanna start again
My hands, no, they don't wanna understand
My hands, they just shake and try to break whatever peace I may find

My hands, they only agree to hold
Your hands, no, they don't wanna be without
Your hands, and they will not let me go, no, they will not let me go

Sometimes I wake, I see them reaching out for you
Quietly breaking whatever shields I spent so long building up
I cannot fake 'cause when they cry I'm unspoken
They miss holding my baby

My hands, no, they don't wanna understand
They just shake and try to break whatever peace I may find
My hands, your hands, they don't wanna be without
Your hands, and they will not let me go, no, they will not let me go

My hands, don't wanna start again
My hands, no, they don't wanna understand
My hands, they just shake and try to break whatever peace I may find

My hands, only agree to hold
Your hands, no, they don't wanna be without
Your hands, and they will not let me go, no, they will not let me go
No, they will not let me go

by Leona Lewis